I’m not sure if the interviewing system is flawed, or if I’m not doing it right.
As a recent graduate the next step is looking for a job, because that unemployed life just isn’t for me. Myself, along with hundreds of thousands of other graduates, are trolling the internet every day applying for any job that remotely resembles the career path we want to pursue. The application part is easy, it’s the interviewing part that is messing with my head.
I need to make a good first impression so I arrive early. I sit in a foreign reception area scoping out the potential work space without looking like I’m actually scoping it out. Half of the staff that walks by say hello with a smile, easing me into my seat with the kind gesture. The other half just pass by without acknowledging, it’s just another reminder that I’m not part the crew, yet.
I sit across from someone I have just met and try to focus on the questions that I am being asked.
“where do you see yourself in five years?”
“what are your hobbies besides reading and writing?”
“what is your writing style?”
“why should we hire you?”
I want to be honest and say that I can’t see into the future, people change and so do goals, who knows where I’ll be in five years. I want to confess to being a full-time nerd, hobbies beside reading and writing? Reading and writing are my hobbies. Fullstop. My writing style? How do I verbalize a written style? Is that not somehow asking me to answer the impossible? And why should the company hire me? Well, well, this question is either testing my sarcasm skills or the company is indirectly asking for an ego boost. I should be hired because I meet every requirement in the job ad? I have two degrees? I’m looking for a job and you’re hiring?
Of course I can’t say any of this. Instead I give professional answers. Ones that answers the questions in a way that the company accepts, but in no way showcases my wit and sarcasm and playful nature. Half of the answers don’t even reflect who I truly am. They sound almost generic. I know this, the interviewer knows this. But they still ask it.
Interviewing is a jarring process.
I now find myself in a mini existential crisis, do I decrease my quirkiness and sabotage the self for the sake of professionalism? Or do I let my quirkiness shine and let it possibly cost me a potential job?
If blogging has taught me anything, it’s that I am not alone in the opinions, thoughts and emotions I have.
Comment and let me know if you’ve ever felt this way? And how you resolved it?